hello pooks,
by: me… duh
this would be classed as a love letter except its on a screen, on a website…
i wouldnt actually class this as a gift, this is literally just a little letter for you bud
anyways… just letting you know this actually does get abit deep, i do apologise.
but ye HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY!!! i hope you have an amazing day pooks and get everything that you want!!! i think at this point it’s like standard to write a letter since we do it every year, and I also couldn’t let your birthday go by without saying anything.
i hope youve been doing well bud, its strange to think about how much time has passed and yet at the same time its literally feels like it was yesterday that we stopped speaking.
there’s not a day that goes by where i dont think about you, ik there might be times where i might be cold and say i dont want to talk to you, but what you dont know is that i literally miss u like 24/7.
i know were slowly moving on, but I think apart of me knows that i will always want you,
i hope we do have that happy ending, I hope one day when were maturer and better than we can finish what we started, you are my first love and i do believe that your the love of my life
i still remember the time when we first said i love you like it was yesterday, cigarettes after sex playing in the background with the blinds shut so the room was dark with the door just open a little so it wasn’t pitch black, the way when i said it i could feel ur smile widen, you hugged me tighter and then said it back to me.
I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you sim and idk if there will be a point where I won’t, I miss what we were, I miss what we had, but more importantly, I miss you. I miss laying down, doing nothing and just being with you, you were my person my other half.
I know we had our problems, but when we were together it was unreal, giggling all the time, not being able to not touch one another (not like that but you know what I mean), our little rituals and routine we had just ughhh.
I literally got a carbonara the other day and I thought Im getting full I need sim to come and help me finish it, or if im at a nice new restaurant id think omg sim would love it here.
what we had will always own a special place in my heart, im grateful for what we had, both good and bad, youve help me grow so muchlike i wouldnt be who i am today without you.
There are times where I think about the future we once spoke about — a little boy and girl running around, the two of us living somewhere warm, making dinner together, laughing about nothing, and idk just being happy.
But if it comes to it and we dont end up finding out way back to one another, I’ll be happy for you. Like if you end up falling in love with someone else or even build a family with someone else, I will be nothing but happy for you.
Our relationship was rough, toxic, arguing like there was no tomorrow but I know that the love we had for one another was pure, which is why I want you to be happy even if that isn’t with me bro, would I be jealous 100%, would I feel sick straight away 100%, but I would be happy for you, I honestly wish you the best even if that isn’t with me.
Ive seen you go from school to managing your parents Nisas, to marketing, to now selling houses and making alotttttt of money, I am really proud you, ik I had my moments in the relationship where I didn’t show that, but I am bro and I always will be
Loving you was more than a choice, my heart is yours, and our souls are forever connected. It’s a bond deeper than words, a love that feels like it was written in the stars. (i literally wrote this in feb, and i still believe it now bud)
Since im here im also going to list out why I got you what I got you,
Gold ring – it reminded me of the very first ring that you gave me, it was soooo cute but I did lose it sadly:( but it also slightly reminded me of ur promise ring, so I was like she doesnt wear my promise ring, this is sortttt of similar but its not a promise ring so she could wear it
Silver bracelet – I remember you said you needed a silver bracelet (ik its not LV many apologies) but I remember seeing this bracelet like this agesssss ago and I was like I love that bracelet, so I thought we would get matching (you’ll see this on my post today)
Swarovski bracelet + earrings – I just thought they were cute bro ngl.
Flowers in a basket – I saw these and thought they were so cute (this is the gift that has wood, the basket is the wood), also I apologise for the amazon wrapping on the flowers it was literally the only wrapping I had available at the time.
CRTZ top – because you liked my first one I got soooo much you decided to take it and next let me wear it, this top is also brand new btw, its not like im giving you an old top
Jelly cat marsh mallows – I literally thought about costa when I saw these, when we booked London lol, that was crazy. I got the rabbit because I thought it was cute, there was a red one but ik your not a big fan of the colour red
I could acc go on forever talking, but i need to conclude thy letter. I hope you like all of the tiktoks and reels ive put in this, it took soooooo long, i hope you like the gifts and even more I hope that you have a lovely birthday
Happy Birthday Simran!!!!!
Love from
Rian x
look at slay x
pls